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Animal: 'I was drugged and raped by that man,' Barbara told Mail Online. If I can help one victim, then I've done my job''The first thing Mr.

Whenever he'd be in Denver for work, he'd make it a point to meet me, give me acting lessons, and eventually this lead to him flying me all over the country to join him.'He flew me to Lake Tahoe to attend the John Denver Celebrity Ski Classic.He arranged for me to see Broadway shows in New York.He brought me to Hilton Head, South Carolina, to watch him perform and attend a star-studded golf tournament.He said it was all part of his assessment to see if I was worth mentoring and grooming. She wanted me to have these opportunities.'Now, in retrospect, Barbara believes this was all part of Cosby's plan — to 'gain my mother's trust so that she wouldn't butt in and get in the way.'By the time I was drugged and raped by him in New York, he'd already broken me down, brainwashed me and made me feel like there was something wrong with me if I resisted his sexual advances.'Bill would say that he needed to guide me, and that I must trust him. My next recollection is me, coming to, slumped over the toilet bowl, throwing up. I was vacant.''I was ashamed and scared, first of all. I thought this was all part of the deal.' Success: In spite of Cosby, the years following their 'relationship' marked success for Barbara.He wanted to see how I handled myself around celebrities.''I got the royal treatment. I was met at the baggage claim curb by his right-hand man. yes, I was an independent girl, but he knew I was vulnerable and alone inside. He insisted I give into him 100 percent.'Barbara said that because Cosby befriended her mother and grandparents, and even flew mom and daughter to Broadway shows, complete with limo treatment and all so that he could get away with his sexual violations.'He zeroed in on that like a laser beam.'My mother totally trusted him, too. When he'd fill me in on my next itinerary to meet him, he would say, "You're not going to fight me this time, are you? That it was a one-time thing, that it wouldn't happen again. I was wearing a man's white t-shirt and my panties.'The t-shirt was not mine. He was trying to soothe me with his words, "It will be okay. It was a sick pit in my stomach, knowing that I was out of control over the last undetermined amount of time. The active part of my brain kept saying to me, 'I'm on top of the world. No cattle calls or paying dues or groveling for jobs. She starred in more than 30 national TV commercials, including ones for Mc Donald's, Miller Lite and Holiday Inn'And, it was getting dangerous for him. I'd been abruptly moved from the New York City apartment he set me up in, to a distant house in Roslyn, New York, 45 minutes away by train.''Who delivered the bag? You were drunk."'He freaked out that I disclosed to the concierge the fact that a 19-year-old girl was calling from his penthouse. He throws me down on his bed and jumps on top of me.

Then, I'd be handed off to Bill's bodyguard, who would take care of me until Bill was ready to see me. I was never alone.'He started working on my head right away. " He'd remind me that if I was going to be a successful actress, I'd have to break down my barriers and "learn to be vulnerable." Sick: 'He turned out all the lights. He laid me down on the couch and started caressing and touching me all over,' she relates. And I was paralyzed with fear.'He invited me to his New York brownstone for dinner. Bill was standing over me, holding my hair out of my face as I threw up. And that I was undressed, while he was in a white robe, and how had I gotten there? I was special, with something unique that other aspiring actresses didn't have. I had the biggest connection ever.'My brain was telling me not to believe it, like I was imagining it not to be true, so much so that I rationalized it away. Certainly, the concierge wouldn't have entered my room unannounced. He used his forearm to pin me down by the neck.'He was trying to unbuckle his belt and take down his pants. I didn't need one more authority figure to tell me I was full of s***.''To be totally honest, I could barely deal with the truth myself.

When it was over she ran out of the room and threw up'He turned out all the lights. He laid me down on the couch and started caressing and touching me all over. When it was over, I ran out of the room and threw up.'It was so invasive and frightening and humiliating. 'I know for sure he forced himself multiple times upon me and since he needed to create an environment in which I could not fight him, I can't in all honesty say that I recall penetration because at that time I was in a vacant state of mind, as I was often drugged and brainwashed.'Whatever drug he gave me, didn't allow me to think clearly when it was over and done with. Once again I wondered what happened after I'd fallen asleep. There, he berated me, "What the hell is the matter with you! I'll never forget the sound of the clinking of his belt buckle. I'm screaming for help and trying to wrestle out of his grip while he's trying to get his belt off and he's trying to pull my pants down at the same time. Connection: 'I was ashamed and scared, first of all,' says Barbara about her relationship with Cosby. I was holding back and embarrassed about the hand job. I went into the lawyer's office confident he would help me.

Then he put my hand on his penis, covering it with his hand. The active part of my brain kept saying to me, 'I'm on top of the world. No cattle calls or paying dues or groveling for jobs.''I didn't stop screaming. He finally gets to a point of frustration and decides it's too much trouble and he doesn't want to risk it. I walked out with my tail between my legs, just like when Bill threw me out of that hotel room for the last time.

When Barbara Bowman was a teenager she was emotionally and sexually abused by the TV star and in an exclusive interview with Mail Online she describes in chilling detail how Cosby manipulated her into believing he was a father figure and took advantage of her youth, vulnerability and yes, even ambition, to have his way with her over and over again.'I was drugged and raped by that man,' she tells Mail Online. If I can help one victim, then I've done my job.' 'I'm finally revealing all of my full story in hopes that others will learn to read the tell-tale signs of abuse and not wait as long as I did. Pioneer: The Cosby Show was hailed as a ground-breaking show for its depiction of a normal middle class African American family, the Huxtables Starring along with Cosby, left to right, Malcolm-Jamal Warner, Keshia Knight Pulliam, Tempestt Bledsoe, Phylicia Rashad as wife Clair and Lisa Bonet Barbara's fear is that her perpetrator will actually hit the NBC airwaves again, as soon as next summer in a new sitcom, playing a patriarchal father figure, just like he played the quintessential family man Dr Cliff Huxtable on The Bill Cosby Show in the 1980s.'Maybe he should also teach his fictitious TV family how to escape the talons of sexual predators.

My hope is that others who have experienced sexual abuse will not be intimidated into silence by the famous, rich and powerful. No more code of silence.'Now, 25 years after the multiple incidents of drugging, sexual assault, and even rape at the hands of the now 77-year-old Cosby, Barbara said: 'I've been silent too long. He is standing up for me and the other women who are too afraid to speak out.

But I'm putting my name out there and standing behind these words, just like Burress. And it's taken decades to get over what he did to me.'I thank Hannibal Burress for speaking out over and over again, despite the threats from the Industry that it could ruin his career.